There are lots of different types of loneliness, but I believe the most common type is the romantic longing loneliness. The loneliness that makes you feel a little colder on the inside, it’s feels like someone has come with a freshly used ice cream scoop and taken something out of the middle of your chest and the only way it can be patched is by wrapping your arms around another human being and covering this hypothetical hole.
Whenever I’m with you I want to take millions of pictures so I can remember every face you pull and every little movement you do with your hands, unfortunately that’s a bit weird so I’ll take just one and hope that it’ll suffice.
My life sure does have some beautiful moments. It’s been brilliant, I think one of the most positive effects my winter of mushrooms had on me was that when ever I take in or experience something beautiful I begin to cry. You might ask why that is positive, because you might think that it is anything but, but it just makes the moment even more perfect.
Currently I am splayed across my bed in a flowing beige dress, letting the sun shine onto me through my window and hearing the faint rustle of leaves outside, all whilst listening to Devendra Banhart.
that would be very frustrating indeed. at least you know can do it though. And I'm glad to hear that things are getting better in general. And I'm sure that the infatuation will pass. Me? well I suppose in general I'm pretty good, but just a bit up and down over small things that work themselves up into big things. but everything else is pretty fine and dandy.
I can vaguely do it, hehe. I’m not all too sure the infatuation will pass. It’s just like the past year I’ve been digging myself deeper and deeper into this thing that isn’t real.. Hm. It’s hard to understand if you don’t know the situation. I know completely how you feel, well at least I’m pretty sure. It’s like a couple weeks ago I was fretting about this assignment getting done when I had bigger things I needed to deal with that didn’t even seem important at all. It’s always lovely to hear when things are fine.
I have a strange subconscious. It readily clings and moulds and really adapts to constant company. When I see people for days on end and then not at all I feel odd and act weirdly… I’m being weird now aren’t I?
I just spent four hours soldering with practically nothing to show for it so I’m pretty frustrated at myself, but oh well. As a general I’m quite alright, things have been better but I believe I’m coming out of a dark patch, so that’s always good. I think I might be completely infatuated with someone whom I wish I wasn’t. How are you friendly stranger?